From the spaces between

happy solstice! i fly in the morning from winter to summer, longest night to longest day ~ to begin a fresh journey in the peruvian amazon ~ so i feel it is a ripe time to unveil what i’ve been incubating during these long dark nights: i have been working on this website since summertime, as a place to harbor visions, which means there are a lot of words, and also sounds & sights, attempting to say something that can’t be said, to name something that is nameless, and to touch something that may never be reached yet is somehow Here. i have waited this long because it feels incredibly vulnerable to share words with you that are so inadequate and yet so close to my heart, and not just my heart, but pointing to the essence of something that might be me, or perhaps is something we share. i realize in this moment that i am terrified of being seen, and yet at the same time it is something i deeply long for. so, it is from this in-between space ~ between terror and desire, sharing and hiding, saying and not saying; between coming and going, winter and summer; between nothing and everything, self and other, me and you ~ that i invite you to have a look around. please also help yourself to a download or stream of my annual music mix, fresh off the ol’ laptop for your listening pleasure.

just released: 2014 mixtape ~ sung by elements

check out my new annual mix for 2014. happy solstice <3

a journey through some of the jewels of sonic delight i’ve been appreciating this year. enjoy! <3

Track List:

1. Cualli – Omnu
2. Elephant Revival – Remembering a Beginning
3. Soname – Sun and Moon
4. Valerie June – Workin’ Woman Blues
5. Kalya Scintilla – Ver La Luz
6. PEGA5U5 – Keep Swimming (feat Joanna)
7. Elk Road – Diamond
8. Spoonbill – Framed By Funk
9. LAYLA – Weightless (Dimond Saints Remix)
10. Jungle – Lemonade Lake
11. Tipper – The Re-Up
12. Trevor Kelly – Sacred Fire
13. Rhye – The Fall
14. Wu Wei – Abstractions
15. Kyrstyn Pixton – Dolphin’s Pipe
16. Yaima – Gajumaru
17. Erothyme – I See Your Everything (feat Entheo)
18. Rising Appalachia – You Don’t Miss Your Water Till Your Well Runs Dry
19. Abigail Washburn & The Sparrow Quartet – It Ain’t Easy

facing and forgiving our shadow

Within the dualistic realm of experience, we subconsciously label everything we encounter as either “me” or “not-me”, and thereby simultaneously construct our own identity and opposition – our ego and its complementary shadow.

There is great healing potential within the shadow, especially for those things we find ourselves most resistant to. Can we bring these shadow aspects to the light, own them as a part of our self, and find forgiveness? This is one path to approaching unity.

Here is a challenge to you:

1. Right now, find something you are resisting identification with. [For myself, I am currently experiencing feelings of contempt for people who aspire for monetary gain ahead of earth and human welfare.]

2. Summon some compassion for that thing, person, or phenomenon – understand its motivations and reason for being.
[Continuing with my example: I understand that many people feel a sense of scarcity that creates a lot of fear for one’s personal wellbeing, and that in a state of fear it is very difficult to expand one’s field of care to encompass others or the earth, and that their primary need is to feel secure, oftentimes through a fixation on monetary gain.]

3. Search within yourself for a place in which that thing, person, or phenomenon exists – it may be difficult to face, as it is probably something you are not proud of or do not want to see in yourself.
[I turn toward all the times that I make decisions in favor of monetary goals or personal convenience at the expense of the planet. To give just a single pertinent example:  I often drive my car when I could ride my bike or take public transportation, because I have a perceived scarcity of time.]

4. Take responsibility – understand that the external manifestations of this phenomenon are the very same pattern that you are experiencing in your internal space (not saying anything about causality).
[I recognize that when I make selfish decisions I am acting in the exact same way as those “others” whom I feel contempt for. In fact, the contempt I feel for others mirrors the contempt I feel for myself when I make selfish decisions.]

5. Find forgiveness for yourself and the “other”. Forgiveness does not necessarily mean that you agree with or condone whatever you are forgiving. It merely means that you acknowledge that it exists as it exists right now, and you find peace with it, releasing it from your judgment, negative attachment, and opposition.
[I accept that there is a part of me that acts selfishly out of a fear of scarcity, and I forgive myself for this. Although I acknowledge that I act selfishly sometimes and am not proud of it, I release the contempt I hold for that part of myself, as the contempt itself perpetuates pain and prevents me from fully owning the consequences of my actions.]

6. Repeat as often as possible when you find yourself in a state of opposition or suffering.
[When I forgive myself and others it enables me to actually connect my current self to the parts of myself and of others that feel fear of scarcity. By offering connection rather than opposition, I no longer reinforce a sense of fear and separation that caused the behavior in the first place. Whew, well I feel better at least.]

“We must develop and maintain the capacity to forgive. He who is devoid of the power to forgive is devoid of the power to love. There is some good in the worst of us and some evil in the best of us. When we discover this, we are less prone to hate our enemies.”

~Martin Luther King, Jr.~